Feeling lost and unwanted~

I struggle with what life is throwing at me right now.

In the prime of my life I feel like a failure.

I feel drained with disease.

I feel like giving up.

I feel so unhelpful.

I ask you god to help me understand this process.

I ask for guidance in the journey.

Most days I just want to curl up and hide from the public because

I see what this disorder has done to me.

I hate the look, the feel and the disappointment in my thoughts and actions.

Please god...where are you when I need you.

I know they are plenty of others out there that need you, but I am 

hurting and I also need help.

Help me with my life right now.

Help me figure it out.

In Jesus name I pray,  Susan