When the time is right...when is that supposed to happen.

I have yet to understand this quote.

I don't know about trusting god with my timing.

I feel cheated right now in my life.

God has taken away my ability to enjoy the things that I loved doing

a few years ago.

I have lost my joy and I have lost my physical body to some crazy disorder.

Timing...how will we ever know when the timing is right.

It seems crazy to me that it is my life and it is controlled by someone else in 

a higher power.

I have yet to find the day or the situation where I can say...thank you god

for putting me through this shit.

It makes no sense to me.

When I ask for guidance, I feel like I am being put aside because he has no 

time for me.  He is busy helping others in their journeys.

I wake each day hoping for a better day and I find that the day is like all others.

I am so lost and I don't know how to find my way out of this disease.

God...please listen to me, hear my prayers.