Dystonia~

 It takes my breath away every morning.

The anxiety of waking up and dealing with another day.

Does my family understand the pain and sorrow I deal with.

I know my husband tries to do everything he can to take the pain and discomfort away, but he just can't.

I dread the nights, I dread the mornings, and I really dread the days.

Dystonia is no joke.  It takes away my freedom to do what I really want to do.

It gives me pain and the movements in my neck are hard to deal with.

I love my family dearly, but I can't enjoy them like I want to.  

I love my grands and my siblings, but once again I can't do the things that make me happy.

Please god, take this away, make me whole again and give me back the life I need right now.

We head to Estes Park in a week for a little respite care.

We head to Cheyenne for another treatment and I pray and know it will work this time.

The anxiety overwhelms me right now.  

God,  if you can't heal me, give me strength to wake up every morning and be the best I can be 

with this disorder.

I pray for all who are out there dealing with disorders beyond their control.  I pray that they have more good days than bad days.

I want my life back!!!