Decide today and never look back~

I had a moment last night when I decided that enough was enough with my

tension headaches.  I will throw them away and start fresh 

with my feelings for the day.

I have suffered enough with them and have missed out on many things and

moments so off they go.

The headaches started in 2019.  A combination of moving mom and dad

to assisted living and changes in my life.  There was the marriage of Drew 

and Hannah and the loss of a job (mom's day out).

I had gotten a really bad cold, one that left me with a sinus infection

and things really escalated from there.

In December of 2019, I got another cold, right after Christmas and boy was it 

another bad one.

January of 2020 I went to the PA with a good sinus infection so back 

on antibiotics I went.

Covid was to hit the world months later, but Kristin thinks that I probably

had covid before it was even in our area.

We spent the better park of Jan. and Feb cleaning out mom and dad's house.

Throwing away things, donating lots of things and moving stuff was

exhausting .  I am pretty sure my stress level was an 11 out of 10, maybe 

even higher.

Mom and dad were still alive at the time and my thoughts went back to 

wondering what they would think knowing we were giving away most if not 

all of their stuff.

I thought at the time I was being strong, but I look back now and I know that

was not the case.  I really wanted to curl up and die and not face

the job of cleaning out and selling the house, but I couldn't.

Not only was my health now good that year, but the loss of Cheri in Feb. was 

more than I could handle.  She was found dead in her house one morning.  She never 

answered her phone and Mark her son came to Denver and found her

dead in her family room.

The covid virus was starting to grow and things were being shut down the middle of 

march.  

The tv news was about death and dying and disease...it was awful.

We were sheltering in our house for what we thought would be a few weeks.

That turned into a few months and then a year.

No rec center, no eating out, no friends over, just lots of isolation.

I lost other friends and family in 2020.

Annie Vawter died in August and we had to clean out her house.

It was an awful year that turned into another awful year 2021.

Things were not getting back to normal.

I guess you could say I tried to find the silver lining in all of it, but I didn't.

Drew and Hannah found out they were pregnant in October and had

Kinsley on May 3, 2021.  She was just what I needed at that time.

It is now 2023 and we are prepping to move into our new home.

The stress has been through the roof again.

Bottom line, I don't handle stress very well...so with that being said, it is

time to get my life back and do yoga again.  I will start with YouTube yoga 

and work my way up.

I will also start walking again and clearing my head.

Enough is enough and I need to take better care of myself cause 

no one else is going to.